00:00.00 tduval18 Get it. Yes, you know snareing your headphons that should be opening I have no snare in my head basic welcome back to side notes with me jaboa oh you such a Bonda now and Ashley this sp that's me now that's. And that has nothing to do with what I want to talk about but it made me think about. Did you see that there's a documentary called quiet on the set and it talks about like the abuse and stuff that this there's me Nickelodeon kids went through including that I don't know if he's a producer but he's something that sexually abused Josh no yeah or. Just Drake Drake bow but yeah so it's on you have my god good I want to watch it. It's one Hbo when you have my longing for I'm gonna start it. So I think we should start like I'm actually down to I and we can go for it by I like solid and it's like really. D shit and then it was something like I saw a commercial talking about how there's some stuff in Nickelodeon that was like geared towards kids like they were having like something like splash that look like sperm all the 1 kid's face my god and but was there but they're just oh my god but now knowing behind the scenes of like the abuse that was happening I'm like. So I want to watch it I think they have 4 episodes out right now know but it's also crazy because I'm like you hear about that really often for like a lot of these shows of like.

01:29.90 tduval18 Creepyass men or even women that get into it so that they can just like abuse kids and so then what were these parents do well that's the problem and I didn't talk I think some knew and just cared like about money I feel like that comes up a lot of you know some knew what was happening but was like my kids like look at Nick Carter not nick aaron carter who talked about like his parents just used his money and like depleedated it like I think it happens more often than not and you only have a few like sets of parents who really are like into it because their kid was into it and then like tried to protect them because I am remember really t in some narrative of interview when they're like our parents were really adamant like they were onset with us. They made sure to like invest our money they made sure that like we had like outside pursuits and things and I'm like really does my girl hilar duff. Whatever her parents were doing because she did. She's like she's turned out really well honestly and I do fun with her I don't know and but I don't. Why when I was younger I just like thought she was like the worst fucking person like I'd met her and she was me to me but like honestly though, like she and I'm so mad that they canceled how I met your father like that show was that was a really good show like I actually really literally like go on it I don't know what her. Name is on the show but she's the hispanic girlfriend. Oh. She's so cute. She was on the show kim and I used to watch secret like american teenager which was so fucking cringy know that's her. Oh yeah, oh my god I only watched it because you and charlotte would yeah charlotte both watched it too. But yeah, that's her.

02:59.85 tduval18 And like god and I've rewatched it recently and I was like wow like you know how you could rewatch de grasssy. It's like that those episode told wait. No it was. It was really cringy like the 1 episode Amy was like I'm a whore because I'm pregnant and Ben was like put your my hor and I'm like no no, that's not. And no, it was just the way he said it it was it was just not like rewatching it I could be cute rewatching it I'm like wow this is so cringy like grace who had sex for the first time and then her dad died in a plane accident. So she blamed it on her having sex and refound herself with Jesus and like because I that sounds like they're grassy. So. But like de grassssi did it a little better. Yeah no de grassssi fucking hits I should rewatch that the degrasss it's on Mas I think it's 1 prime too. Probably I mean I started watching station 19 which is like a sideshow of because I finished Chicago 1 and'm all caught up now so now I'm actually watching episodes on real time and Tv don't like it can't can't can't handle it but I started watching station 19 which is like a side show. It's like a spinoff of grays and so there's a running joke if you ever watch gray's anatomy that like they have the worst cgi and like ha. Still like I get it in 2005 when it was bad but like it is still It's really bad but you look at it. You're like what the fuck so we werere watching I was watching scene she 19 Jake was out here and there was a bear attack and this bear was so badly Cgi Jake was like what the fuck and I was up thing I was like it's just the thing I feeling I want to make it more fun.

04:35.24 tduval18 It really is like it's me running Jo at this point I think Shonda who like does the like the writer and all I think she actively is just like no put of woygi in here because like this bear looked like a fucking baby bear crawling but it got up and it was just rigged toous well that I think that would make a fun kind of. Like 80 s wiies well I mean like back then like it was probably like the shit when when when you rewatch it. It's like oh my god this is so bad but it's so bad. It's good. That's like when I watched Chuck e like I rewatch the original. My guy bro. He's not even scary I was like I will just put that little shit like real I like what the fuck like I was terrified of chuckeyia now I was like re watching I like he literally looks stupid as fuck like I could just kick him across the room like why the acting was not. Best either? No and that shit was good like it was ah it was a funny hit I think that's what I love is rewaching stuff where you're like the acting that you used to be like yeah I fucked with this and then you watch it. You're like wow wow bad. Well I mean I I never watch Chuck when I like younger I think I literally just watched the first child child's play. Everything like or within let's like like the probably like within the last couple of years what are you looking at? Oh so I could see your glasses from here and I guess there's like a cat hair on it and it looked like there was like oh ah like it. It looked like it was cracked it. Um, yeah, and with your glasses.

05:59.95 tduval18 Yeah I mean I was like focusing on you but like I noticed it now I was like oh my god do I need to ho her. No I think it's her recordd I can see it oh that. Okay, that tracks because I really was concerned I was like oh my god her fucking glasses. It wasn't surprised me my dumbass I mean just like strater up. No I think the winner for like never knowing how to handle these boses is Jake oh yeah, Jake Likeer I'm not that bad. Were you there much. Not bad row boat. No with them. But so they all went swimming. You know how his dad has appear and they were going swimming and he must have set them like on the boat but like up higher so then they got back. His glasses were gone so like someone knocked them over. Um, he went to a show the one time and broke his glasses. That's how I broke mine. Yeah like I've only ever broken 1 pair of glasses that way Jake's broken so many I like his 1 pair I like it was before we were living together but I was like what the fuck happened because he had like duct tape with them. Like he breaks those he breaks headset like he just this is struggle cups speaking of so Jackie is visiting her mom and she sent me that like she's cleaning out so for her mom and her mom has this cool as it's like a glass coffee cup that's footstones and like the handle is like a bone knee and she was like. Do you and then there was a batman one she like do you need and then there was order the rooms one and I was like I don't need them. But if you are getting rid of them. Let me get that flintstone and Batman like say like I was like they are so cool and then she got like all these beanie babies and I was like dude people loved being like I'm sure you still sell those I'll let her know but people.

07:36.81 tduval18 Love those will probably go for ba green eaties like that was like a cult phenomenon Um, it was it really really was like it's kind of scary and they had like cases I thought it was cute because like it had a little like their birth certificate. Yeah at their birthday date their name.

07:54.71 tduval18 Ah, little about themselves her non averse certificate I guess like I feel like choices aren't like that like that's something I was talking about the other day for with like with baby is I also want to be able to let him like I'm not always trying to entertain him. But even at this age you try to like get them do tummy time in this but I'd like sometimes I'll let him just sit by himself like I'll be Sam right here but let him entertain himself because I feel like that was something good from our childhood. It's like we didn't have distractions of like the Tv all the time or. A tablet or ipad like sometimes we just have to fucking play by ourselves and like I used to play the fuck out of baries and have whole as I did to play on myself all the time. That's all I had yeah I just played alone and I feel like it's it's healthy like in a way of like you learn how to play and they're also because. Was talking about this and like I don't want him to be 1 of those kids that like if if someone's not entertaining him. He's losing a shit like I want him to be able to just be bored sometimes like you don't have to always be doing something to be entertained cause I don't like I could just be chillin here sometimes I sit to disociate showers I used to sit in the shower. I still do I mean I do sometimes but well I take that back. Not really because right now with showering while I have him now if Jake's here I fuck took out our hot water like straighter like I took a look shit and one I was like shaving and then I was shamp like a conditionerary but like I was like oh shit the water's getting cold I was like gotta get myitioner out.

09:22.32 tduval18 But I was fine with just like I could be by myself and be like doing nothing like I don't have to do anything and I feel like a lot of kids now like my nieces I love them to death. But there anytime I'm like oh let's just look hang out link Cho here. They're like I bored and that you don't have to be doing something every minute of your day like I feel if I remember I would say like I'm bored. Yeah I feel like it's a kid. Only blurring people get polled like you figure it out. You're gonna read some other fucking books I well I would play alone alive. But for the most part I really was at as Susan tell all time with dude I was cracking up because we so we've read to him every night and I guess everyone knows how jake. Likes fucking dinosaurs so we have like multiple dinosaur books but you know dinosaurs have hard fucking names bitch I'm going to show you this book after this. It's like goodnight baby sore and it's like naming all these dinosaurs and me and Jake both I spill polish. What that is oh I was all making the label we it was like goodnight acliliao is saw and like me and Jacob's like I feel fucking stupid. So then we read another modeer book the next thing and I think the save what and so we both were like I was like all right? We're Goingnna have to get good at this one. He likes can really understand so that we sound. Like smart but it was like yeah just positioning in Google and then hit the little speaker button and then she'll pronoun. It has a pronounced like yeah, but but yeah, yeah, that should cool like I was cracking up was like.

10:54.36 tduval18 Whoever wrote these it was like I want parents to look stupid. It was like I mean for real though you he trying to say it. You're like bracky I was like I don't how to say broccoaurus. Thank you my sorus. Well I learned that from dress park which you finally watched the first one I did they don't remember there's quite a few more. About 6 what the fuck 6 so there's the original series that has 3 and then they brought it back with drassic world with Chris Pratt and I thought that was yeah I think that's all the first one I don 6 that's that's a question I think we've talked about this before but like me and Jake Cavy type of thought well I have hypotheticals and Jake just answers me if they made a Jurassic park would you go? No thank you? I mean people was like fuck you and I was like no I'm fucking. Not It's the same that he's like if they made a titan to keep going I'm like absolutely do not they make literal movies about this like I'm not I'm not doing that but I would go in a safari but my problem is is like I'd see like a line like it's friend size. It has pos I do. I would be scared to even do a safari I do enough that if I'm not no I do a safari I don't know I've been too scared why'm saying this but there's if opportunity that presented itself I feel like I feel well now I've been too scared I'm scared to do everything page.

12:22.45 tduval18 Just watched the episode of Chicago med. No Chicago fire and the emts went and this dude had a pizza and I guess like his pizza had a fucking spider on it and it was lodged in his throat and it had to get what I tell you I had to keep eye norm. No I can look at like gories I was at that as. For some reason like a spider being found in my ear. My nose my is like 1 of my big so like irrational fears like yeah, that's a note for me I just I I think that would be it like I'd perish I'd perish right there like they'd be like we got it out I'm like nope I'm dead. Like I'm done because like just anything like crawlate like that Chicago Med had a snake in the girl's ear. She put a baby snake and it got in her ear. She's like make sure you don't kill it I like fucking kill it. It was her head. Let me tell you if Michelle was tiny like that and that bitch crawled in my fucking ear. You know Jake she's not gonna have a head but she's done oh exactly like shit if she got out now and was like trying to kill me and like you're done. So it's birth control. That's what I thought yeah, but I know which can I just. We're gonna side note again I don't know who decided that like I get that they always do the pill as like the first option but as a teenager I remember that was the first thing I took ever was the pill and I did not take it like I would not take it and remember because she was our city at same time.

13:52.75 tduval18 And like that should not be the first option for fucking te now cause they're fucking stupid like now bitch I have an alarm for my lexa pro my birth control like I need to get more candy for I'm much wiser I am much wiser but I'm just like who decided that that's the first choice because no melyn next time you go to my house. I'll say you might handy get south the store and get me candy for that cause I told Jake we need more candy for our candy dish and he's like no I was a use of because I will candy. Oh that that that but I did think we should do a fun segment of. What has it been like for you to see me become a mom because out of every bla of all of our friend group and all you've known me the longest. So like you literally watched me be a meanass kid in elementary school to like a mean ass bitch in high school. The bitch to now a bitch with a baby the baby honestly I don't know I don't really think it. It's just you like I I don't think anything of it I feel like it's like you would brook said because I momed everyone that it's not like I don't I don't I I mean it is different but like I don't at first it was weird. But just see me well I remember when you came and saw me when I was pregnant that is weird like it is weird pre wheres is the pregnancy. It is weird. It's very weird like and I can't even describe of how.

15:21.78 tduval18 Your mind kind of just like gets you where you're like whoa and then I don't think about it until like when like you came and like Rachel came you both. They're like holy shit like you have a belly and I'm like I've didn't like it's cause this happens I'm sure like gradually so like as you're reading bigger. You don't notice. Yeah I feel like I didn't and then even now like I look at pictures and I was like oh I think really my face wasn't puffy and then I look at pictures of like right before I gave birth and I was like no wonder girl was fucking dying when she was walking like my face was puffy. My life was fee my love damn. But it is weird and that's why I was like I wonder how it is for you because I'm like you've been pretty much the person to know me the longest of it and then now see that like there's this tiny hi I don't know I think they're just in I don't know oh I don't think it's weird anymore I don't know I don't know I mean you did hold him. And did a ah few time. Yeah, you're like really on it I like that what Kevin hold him had held him standing up. You're like what a fuck yeah, don't what he was even thinking about doing that. But I mean whatever I mean it's like you said that it was cute. Jake tried to give you like that speech of like. He's not that delicate like you got it like it was really cute when he was like giving you a whole speech of it. It's different once he starts using a little bit more his once he gets more muscle you should sound like my fatherin-law cause he was holding them and he's like all right, all right? You're you're doing better with your head. This is a lot better than because he matter him but like we didn't have any v drinks for two weeks just to kind of like get used.

16:45.69 tduval18 So he mattered when he was probably ah like about two and a half weeks old and he really had no control. He's like this wild he's like we're still not ready to be my fishing buddy yet. Oh that's so cute. What does he want to be called. Ah, he's grandpa. Oh just Dr Grandwell that's fucking boring. Yeah, he's grandpa. He chose that. Yeah. But I said I mean if he ends up whatever her like if he ends a calling on something different like a wait call. Whatever but like my dad's pop ho my mom' is my mom and then pop pop. Um, my mother in law is um, she goes between Grammy and grandma and so I'm just like what whichever one like. <unk>t know grandma and grandpa are just so basic like do me something cute. Well that granny or like well that's how I was good say you had granny and dannna and then like my friend shannon and kim they have mo ma and nan that is so white normal. Yeah, that is it but they had man new and mama and then. Like I always because mine was my grandfather who was pophop but my grandma was just grandma and like every I like pop out I think that's cute but I never already has pop up but I like pop up. Yeah pop up's cute I love pop up. No let's do I won't even know I feel like I don't even know what to call a grandfather. Like I feel like grand willerss have like cool vari varietyties. Yeah grandfathers don't they really have like grandpa grandfather and pop or pop pop. You know what's cute chris like my uncle chris like my his grandparents. He used to call his grandmother honey.

18:19.75 tduval18 That's cute. It was that's like know named Chris Jenner they all of her grandkids call her lovey and I don't remember how it started but like they call her lovevy and thats thats her like but I think yeah honey I thought honey. It's really cute I still think it's cute. No I really do like that I feel like It's interesting because also you can sit here like I could be like oh pop up or whatever but like when he gets older it starts talking. He might call them something completely different like if that's like how he learns words and just calls them that. Like I feel like for my parents. It's a little different because of my nieces and nephews that he'll be like ho with them saying it so they might repeat it but like he might not call roxan like Grandma come up with something on his own right? Just like when Jake was like whatever name. He's calling you t o ashley that's like Jesus he is such a. Fucking hater. Let me try to be like let me let me do what I gotta to do I lived in Mexico for 11 years okay I mean I feel like t has cute I think it's t and t or cute to me like I really have always thought like because you know we don't have a me and I'm half weight half black we don't have really cold names. It looked but like t just sounds cute. It is its I was just like aunt aunt like just I mean boring or you know what else is cute. My um brooks mom. Yeah, they call her Gigi I do like ggi g g's cute I think that's the other brooks mom got called that too.

19:44.48 tduval18 Ah, really I think so but I think that is g g's cute that I think we showed the episode before of fucking family feud where it was like what's another name for ma l a was like Mama and then the next one was like man a and he's like that's he's a headty spell. She's like MAMA and he's like.

20:02.67 tduval18 But like I do feel like you have a lot more options right for it where it's like it's different happy I mean I know you hate it. But I told Jake I was like I already called mom that the british like yeah, that's no I love it, low it or like it's whatever gets. Call me, it's he just supposed youva. Yeah, he said a poem me, he's like yo Javada but I yeah guy Iris words now yo ja bondda what it? What? a Jake Jake felt your day was saying so our friends came over and asked speak his head shot for like work and their daughter was meetinging him. And Jake was like just telling a story and you don't realize until you're around kids how much you cost and I just had realized like Jake had said fuck like 8 times I was like that's a parker's first fucking word. He's even get fuck because be or maybe not because like I grew up with a bunch of fucking customers and. I didn't literally start cu until like 18 or 19 you were 18 I remember I was there like I did deal. So it's like maybe he I'll be that type like I just didn't I just thought it was icky I thought it was just yeah I mean I do wish that dog can be wrong I love a good cuss word and something. But I do wish I didn't like cuss as much as I do oh I don't care like I don't care but I also kind of just like cause I know when to do and know one not to do it like obviously if I'm at work I don't do it. No bitch I did it at work the 1 when you're talking to clients.

21:33.97 tduval18 Or yeah, was sorry heights I was talking to if I'm talking to my coworkers i't forgotten. No it was. It was someone that came there and I like had said shit and my boss was like you didn't even notice and I was like damn and I like normally I do good with it. But I do think especially since the pandemic and then like coming back from being fully remote to being in office. It changed it for me where I'm like I didn't notice that I would like slip it in there because especially when I was like the manager at fully remote I didn't always have to talk to anyone like yeah I talked to my team but that was like once a month or if they needed me but I was like mainly doing like reports and handling like other meetings that I could like mute myself on a meeting and be like y'all fucking bitches. It took like I was like oh that and like my face I had to really be back in office work on like my facial expressions because being home I could just turn my camera off and be like yeah fuck down my boy and' be in an office I'm like I have to remember that people could see me smile. Just. For it because like I hate that like I still do I still hate being an office just because I'm like I'm not built for that anymore like I'm just not like the fact that you I mean I know your job is different but like the fact that you go in every time and like you have to be literal words it's i. I don't like it I don't either I can handle like okay phone calls or like virtual meetings. But I'm like I do not like to like everyone was like oh by the end of your maternity leave. you're gonna want to be like back at work and I'm like no I don't want to go back everyone's like and you're gonna want to be out of the house I'm like no.

23:07.25 tduval18 But even now like I but he's good to go out of the house and I said well we've taken him out twice or the third time's gonna be like the second time was your house which I feel like that's gonna be like a second hum to him like I'm good to be there so he's gonna be there. So it's not like anything crazy but like we took him to a restaurant and we're going to lunch tomorrow. Restaurant friend. You told to ah the das spears brewery when we want Sean Kim early and we're going to right away tomorrow. Um, oh my god five zo we said to yes she was so we were supposed to do all so I take my friends that take charn kid's family pictures. And what we're gonna do is like when we do there is we're gonna do ours easy? Well, it's just a fucking rain like all day tomorrow so we were like oh we do them? Well zo he was like can we still get lunch and I was like how yo girl we can still get lunch and we were gonna few Chilis because I'm like their family of 4 we like it's just easier. Chilis has good deals and she was like can we go to. Fire truck. Please like you're like fire truck. Please what it jakes up. What's a fire and I was like she meets Redberg. He's like it's a fire and I was like Jake yes, they have like a fucking fire truck. It ever has with pay your attention but she likes it because like on Friday nights in the avenue they have like live bands and stuff so like they've went where yeah we should go. And so she likes going there because they've went there before going there I'm go to the fire to please? Yeah, so you were come when tomorrow. Yeah, we're going at 12 oh in the afternoon. Yeah, that's fucking for yeah, you wouldve gone I'm down. Okay beat us there I'm down then on as out here earlier and then go because so Jake and I are driving separate. He's going to help his mom.

24:41.50 tduval18 Yeah, that would be cool cause then I gonna have a couple and then by the time you get back? Yeah, you could just go here. Yeah, just like it here like cause Kevin works tomorrow so that'll be fine. It's not like he'll be home. Yeah, just come here at like a eleven thirty or I'll go to a deco in the morning get a kid that too I was gonna get paint get a paint look get a key. The good have you ever there? Yeah, but yeah, so I don't even know I want to paint it I want to paint the cabinet I kind of want to paint my wall but you made me want to paint my wall let fucking. Do it I'll do it for you while if we do it I'm saying if because I have to figure out color I would want to do it later what it's warmer so that'll have the windows open especially with him. I need to give you back your or Jake's special paint brush his grand I didn't even use it I'm scared you could use it. No I didn't use it at all computer. but but I have it hit no let me tell you this is one thing I will say for sure for sure about like older generations I have a lot of complaints about some older generations and I out I'm like y'all. Like they like to be like we raised our grandkids. No bitch. We were outside y'all just were like go outside for sixteen fucking hours and don't die, but his grandpa for real rest his soul. He did not play when it came to like stuff that he needed like he had. Multiple shotbacks. He has those paint bar shoes that are like super fucking nice that we have now that are like how on he had a whole tool set thing that Jake ended up getting that was your grandfather thing back wasn't it like it's such a like cause minded too. He a fucking per pain that was like a full tank that we got two years ago that just ran out like.

26:12.63 tduval18 He had so much like dude stuff and like he just had an abundance of it like I remember I think Dan was here with my father in olds here. 1 time. He's like Jake was saying he needed something and he's like pretty sure I have that from dad like what the flip did his grandmother work. Ah well yes, she worked at a grocery store but like. Part time. Okay so I feel like that was how it was back then yeah because grandfathers just did it they yeah they were like papa duols like literally like cause Poppa had the whole fucking workbe in the basement like yeah, all the tools like literally he had everything he but it served me the air because it was like. Like our grandparents but that is I feel like our parents right? that skipped out. Well yeah, that's what I meant like our our yeah parents because that that is such a grand parent thing and then like the because that was the thing back then like the the father would provide and then like yeah the mom could work like girl as she cleaned houses but that wasn't like. And then she actually worked at vo off for a little bit but I feel like in it I mean go for good for granny and even like miss Hazel my grandmother in law who's passed I feel like they also wanted to have their own money like just even a little bit like for it which is smart because especially their generation that wasn't encouraged but it's weird because i. I mean rest my pop pop soul I don't really like he died when I'm 7 so like I vaguely but I feel like he had a lot of that so he loved trains I do remember that like he would put like toy trains together such a fucking girl and but then I feel like now thinking about like my kid's grandparents like I love my dad to death. But I've never seen that man put something together.

27:47.62 tduval18 Like shout out dad if you listen I think you do I've never seen him put something together and Dan Dan puts stuff together I do feel like Dan puts stuff together but like I'm thinking about whenever he has kids like Jake does not put you together. He's go to know that Grandma is like an I go one out here like let show that it's poem gonna get home. He or tommy I don't know what he goes but but anyway like he he is I just realized I don't think I've ever known like I feel like I've heard Kevin's dad talking about but I never had paid attention to that anyway, he's like now. He has like every fucking tool but like the good shit too like he doesn't get the cheap stuff like I feel like he's that type of grandpa like he will because he's an electrician and that's what he does for a living so like he will know he's and what's he in town again. I don't know because we have. Or gf gfi gfc whatever the outlets on our porch like something's up with them and Jake was saying like how we need an electrician and I did not realize because look. He's like a hello electrician but. But um, but he emails to a voice look I'll just go with the Boyss message. You'd like by the way Jake Kevin's dad is an electrician you should run mask Kevin but like cause ours are are like that too. The the porch light outside doesn't work I'll see when we got here ourrs didnt and then that was something we put in like what we bought the house because you.

29:11.18 tduval18 When you go through buying a house like you can put hey this needs to be fixed and it was like the front light which I kind of was like it doesn't matter and you said no, we're gonna but it was like the front light and I mean those 2 windows like didn't close all the way. Our dishwasher was leaking and it was like 1 other thing. Oh the doorbell doesn't work which doesn't even matter enough because we have a ratified doorbell so but like they fixed it. They fixed all of those but it's because Jake likes to use wall. He doesn't like to use it I just have bit shit off that he does when he cuts the grass he uses his leafrower to like get rid of the excess. Grasss because I hate it being there and last time he cut the grass before it got like really cold heat. It wouldn't work for our front or back one like our outlets out. There aren't working weird. So I said it so he you know he won a mission to home depot like it was a whole thing for like what is he gonna he got the little like Jeff. Think it's a Gfi Steve like working hour does like electric city or not like he just bg and stuff and he's probably gonna be cussing me out in this episode because I think it's a Gfi. It might not be but' like to test it and like it wasn't showing like it would do it I don't pay heat when Jake says. He's going to home depot I expect it's the same thing that when he knows that I say I'm going to Barnes and nobles is don't ask questions I may come home with a lot of stuff I may come home with nothing but I'm probably going to spend like a good hour or 2 in there just you know enjoying my time because I went with him good.

30:41.92 tduval18 Be in time and I was like oh now I understand why you don't want to go to Barton Noble to me because he's like checking every fucking aisle and I was like we came in for this like we have this this is in the cart. Why are we and he's like well I might need this and I'm like oh my and so that's this Kevin do that like this Kevin Ham store that like he goes to and he's like. Fucking grocery store good for him though you know why good for Jake's grocery shopping now like the for job because he took over it while I leave and I was like oh well I could start like going because I could just hit the one up. Well my way from work or whatever or the days that he's picking up baby and he was like. No I like grocery shopping I was like you know what good for you. You could go because like I'm not a good grocery shopper I will go in with my list and then I also leave with 30 other things that like logistically I did not need so I'm like you know what you go in take over grocery shopping I was like I'm like. Too like I just want to go and get my shit but like Kevin he like looks at everything like looks at all the ingredients or like he just like oh my god like sometimes I'd just be standing there I'm like just. Just based on Jake had coho and like so you know how they have the ground beef and like ground turkey and they like a round way for it. He was like to look they have this watch fat. It's this much it was this ninety nine for it which is different than the one in here. It has been whole thing and I'm like meanwhile he's telling me this and I'm like.

32:06.20 tduval18 Feeding the baby and I'm like I really need to shower and I'm just like I hate to interrupt right now I know you're really excited about all this I was like but can you put that the fuck away. So I think of a out work. What kind of I got nothing do right? but he loves it too like we'll just send them to the grocery store if you like think but he's also good at like he does not ever get like. He'll get like 1 or 2 like random of things but like I'll go in audies and they have like the candy little section or like the new cereals and I'm like oh well, we need to try to yeah know he's just like he gets to think that that white cheddterar cockcorn that's his fucking shit he will get that every time. But he never like I'm always like oh he's gonna come home with like something that we did it frommo list. They go? No he gets the list that means it's good. No, it's great. All and it's great for our budget but sometimes I'm like live a little you didn't see those little chocolate squares over there. The dark chocolate. You don't want throw them bitches in your cart. No. Yeah I'm proud of throwing things in there I don't need. For real I that's why as much as I hate using Amazon I've been doing that where I'm like I'm getting exactly what we need and just putting in Amazon in it because I'm like if I go to target I know I'm not coming out alive I'm gonna find I'm gonna find stuff for the baby I'm gonna find random shit for me I do need to go there because I need a new iro tool. Before I start back at work. Ah, that's very pretend which you do not have old. We'll discuss it. But um, we could go before we could go after or before on shore a right because we'll be in that area. But.

33:39.30 tduval18 I like I find things that we need or I'll even late and ja again Jake is the type of person I think ke the same way if he wants something he buys it like it's so hard like I hate shopping for him because he doesn't like a lot of stuff or want a lot of stuff but if he wants it he fucking buys it especially I will tell you november. That man is like oh I'm gonna buy this and like you do know you have a birthday and Christmas like right? they but I'll find shit there I'll be like do I found these hots sauce like boxers but I was like there's a fun gift. So though that he's like watch maybe boxers and I was a just thinking to you I like just making a deal of the story like have a good ease like I mean thank you He's a good idea like. I just go past the I like wow he could use this. He couldn't use it but he could remove now I do want to go Target I could get a target and showdown design 12 but 5 potentially we totally could if we just like go real quick I'm down the just Bob Brown like we can drive separately. Let's do it tomorrow now. Let's do it now. Let's do tomorrow because he's gonna wake up and I don't want to be that person with him screaming and as much as I don't care about putting my booth has mouth in public. It's a lot It's a old which I also do not care about that at all I like. I've never cared like I've always been like okay people breastfeed in public I don't care but like I did I thought I was gonna be more like timid of doing it and now I'm like not fuck know he's crying on fear and I kid fight me like dare's someone to say something me I'm gonna bring out to the fucking ninth grade jaboda who who you like.

35:12.27 tduval18 What is the excuse ready like it. So I've never I mean obviously like I don't pair but you've never seen I just no I've seen it. It's just I don't know I just I feel like it. It should be covered I mean you meet cover is like I Don go like his face. And this is the difference I don't know why it's just like weird to me like if I'm not in public and I see somebody doing that I'm just like kind of blank it I don't I don't want to blank it over his face but like I will but like you know, yeah like I'll put it over me a little modest or something. Yeah I will put it over me but like I don't have' go in summer because I'm like when it's hot. Because even now sometimes I'm sweating but I think I think it's weird because 1 our previous generation like our parents I don't feel like any other breasted it wasn't a thing if my mom didn't my sister didn't even I don't even know what I and I also feel like. At least for me because we have Rachel talk about this I know my body was meant to make milk. However, seeing it. It's a mind fuck like I'm like wow I went all these years with these Jiys and like 1 they're bigger now I was start to work on my boo is really excited about that I was like wow. I came out to tell Jacob I was like chicken have stretch work like myrooms are big and he was like okay yeah, like you don't understand but it's strange to see your body like produce food for another person like it is very like it's just weird as fuck like making a human like with the help that too organic it is got to be the weirdest thing.

36:47.78 tduval18 Made person I feel like it's the best way to explain it is the whole time I didn't think that I was having a kid so make sense like till he started like after like twenty one weeks moving those first twenty one weeks like I knew I was pregnant I saw I physically saw sonograms. But I was like there's not a kid in there and then even up until like when he came I still was like there's not like a human like it just didn't like register until when I had him and then I was like wow that I really carried a fucking human I made balls jacob I was like I made a penis like that that is I did that. But like even producing milk like it's just a strip like now like I could care less like it's not as weird to be but at first like when I first started breastfeeding I was like I am makey milk. The whole pregnancy thing that's fucking weird I mean it is crazy like and I try to give people like when they ask. Now then like it's hard to give advice for it because 1 everyone's pregnancies are so different like not 1 person's pregnancies I've ever heard have had similar ones and I was like same with birth but I was like you might feel differently like I know some people who hate it being pregnant like. Love their kid or great parents but hate to be pregnant I know other people who absolutely love being pregnant I was like I was in between like some days I was like I'm just sick I'm over it. But then other days like even now I miss him being in my belly like I don't know if it's sleep. But.

38:16.47 tduval18 Nothing is the same What do you miss though? like what what is it that you're missing I think I miss that like he was secure in here like now it's like what he pumps his head what it was like I knew he was safe because he was just in me and plus it's weird me and my friend Liz were talking about this who she just had her chi her daughter three months before me, you miss like their kicks and a little like just feeling them inside you you miss it. It's and even like even my look I told you I was like I look bloated as hell but I looked and I was like I miss my belly. But I do not be pregnant again anytime soon like for real for I do not but it's weird like it's a weird thing where you don't expect it that you just miss that being its value but then I also am like obsessed with peace growing so much so it's it's very strange like it's a very the best way to is both like yes and no answers. Like everything's like I miss him being here but I also love that he's out I don't love I didn't love being pregnant. My first trimester I was sick as fuck but I also miss like him growing and it's very weird and now it's even weirder because of like we're not. Um, meant to leave our kids like I would be what first of all, any parent who is left like well besides of giving up for adoption but like parents who actively are like shitty parents especially moms I get how dads could be like I'm out for who.

39:44.16 tduval18 Just because it's different but like now I like I cannot imagine growing him and then not doing everything in my power to like do the best for him make sure life is good like all of that. But I do the god and there is that's true. But I just don't get it. Of like how you could give birth to a little tiny human and then be like they're fine. Let me just go sit them I'll smoke in the room with them. Let me that like I just don't get it and I try to figure out like how I think I always knew I think I've always known I went to be a mom but I didn't realize how much of like now that I am a mom. I I kind of want to go back to the 50 s house I think where I just have a excited income and that's it like and I never thought I'd be that way I always was like oh gonna be like a career mom where I have my kid that with day carere. But I'll have now like I don't care I could you want to go back in the 1950 s I'll just be home I'll fucking make bread and clean the house all day. I mean I want to do that now. I don't want to work. Yeah I'm kind of over it like I want to work would it be like a side hustle like what I wanted to do right? I want to work because I wanted them because I have to yeah if I want to work one day a week just because like I want to work I don't. Working because I have two bullshit is not cute for real for real do especially because everything is so expensive and I like I overall don't have like a super expensive lifestyle but like I like some finer things and it kind of sucks like yeah I had a certain way of living.

41:15.53 tduval18 When I was a California just because like we had cheap ass rent I was making decent money. So like I had a lot of extra cash. So I was doing dumb shit and now here things are different like our rents more expensive and I'm just like damn like I really had a way of living. Yeah. That's even with like having him now luckily and shout out to anyone who's fucking pregnant when you do your shower do a diaper raffle and like a whitepe thing because we have not we had to buy wipes now but we have not had to buy diapers. Okay, that's good. Um, but.

41:54.94 tduval18 Even that like now when I go to the store. My first thought isn't me like getting Xyz it' like oh I could get first of all my shop was not getting more fucking clothess. But why does my asks last and I want more bars I mean let me look at the clothes like that it is so funny because I I know you had literally this one then he doesn't more clothes but then and you bought him is it show. Knows like things you might like and it like showed up I'm like oh my god that is something I my life I mean it's fine because like babies do grow faster shit. So who knows he could end up like growing like a weed and meeting these other outfits I mean he does have like a lot of fucking outfits and he has a lot of shoes. But I automatically go in like thinking of like I like oh well maybe or look the get me was look. He has a son thing for his window now which I like he didn't need that because it it's em embraceided shit i's like you getting but like I go win and I'm like cool. He needs this and I feel like it's between him and the cats like like well the cats need new tradeits because it's getting a big change for them like there's a baby so that I'm like wanting to get them shit and it is crazy how much it changes it. But everything's so like I like shit was so much cheaper. For our age and it's insane how much more expensive it is dude I'm so glad to have present. No way I want have survived $20 that can fill out my gas tank and get a snack literally and I would have extra $10 that I could get a full fucking meal at chick-fil-a.

43:22.98 tduval18 Oh dude $10 don't even fucking play a burger who one those but burger fucking taco everything was a dollar like most fetch fast food places were dollar like if you give most unless it was like a mealer like a specialty sandwich like cheeseburger double cheeseburgger fucking dollar do fries like no even them all. Ski those even the model nobook for ru and now they're like a dollar 50 shit was like what fifty cents a quarter like yeah hello. That's how we survived the ball and she get this big as drak walking around like I didn't have any money like even when we went to them all I never ever had money. But like I always have if he said yeah I could always find fifty cent I could always give fifty cents and get at least a big as drink of whatever the fuck I don't know it's it is crazy. It's just like. Forgot but she know what's about Kolu you know it's great. Oh I don't ever forget about covid kobu oh shit I was like I never forget about I don't know I was just thinking I'm like oh yeah, we need to do her. Well we'll wrap this up but I was to say what place it's never failed me library. There's still a great. And a fucking nerd. But you know what's nice as you don't have weight fees anymore. That's that is to is nice I don't know what happens if you just never get a book back, but let's find out a out friend find out but we are gonna be more consistent. Um, if you guys haven't go watch.

44:53.99 tduval18 On the set. We're gonna watch it. Maybe do you think we should do like an episode and then review or do like 2 episodes of you. Let's just do one like do one it let's do it? Yeah, okay, so we will review it. You guys watch it too. Obviously if you've ever had sexual abuse or anything it's going to be a trigger warning for that. Um, but I do feel like it's kind of sad but there's a lot of things in our childhood thats are coming out that we like not good for the people involved but we will be back next week watching quiet set and. Like follow subscribe and we will see you next week or hear you whatever bye bye.